The Impermanent Spectacle of Now

1 / Sensations

We walk in circles through
cosmic explosions of
moments concurrent to
the impermanent spectacle of now

Yet I stay for the rations
sensationalized by the glass in my hands
And still I wait to be in the action, as a
trainee of high fashion mannerisms

So here I am
awake in the dark
and alone with my mind
Keeping this all to myself
Lost in the fabric of time

We move in sync through delicate waters
but it’s hard to breathe while
the deep sea tries to
consume me farther

But here I am
awake in the dark
and alone with my mind
Keeping this all to myself
Caught in the fabric of time

2 / What Beauty, What Tragedy

How lovely
How beautiful and sweet

My lonely
My violet mystique

How ugly
How hidden and sour

My unseen
My self-destructive power

How calming
How magical and ripe

My calling
My need to be in flight

How dangerous
How my swollen cheekbones age

The daunting
The presence of fear to stay

3 / Honeybee

Honeybee dancing
In the daylight
Just how I’d like to be
Free and so un-frightened

I would spend my days
Without looking at my face
Instead for hours I’d lose myself
To the scents of sweet flowers

Oh, yonder evergreen
Always seems to tempt me
I’m so much fonder of
Its romanticized scene

And oh, my restless mind is owned only
By the melancholic type
Always hiding hurt behind
A constant laugh and tired eyes, but

Who am I to speak of such?
What am I, just pure
Fatigue out of touch?

Honeybee sleeping
In the moonlight
Just how I’d like to be
Simple as a child

I would spend my nights
Curlеd up in numb delight
In a comfortable graciousness
No worries or contemplations

Oh, yonder evergreen
Always seems to tempt me
I’m so much fonder of
Its romanticized scene

And oh, my restless mind is owned only
By the melancholic type
Always hiding hurt behind
A constant laugh and tired eyes, but

Who am I to speak of such?
What am I, just pure
Fatigue out of touch?

4 / Goodbye

The sea has called
I have to go

I love you so
I love you so

The air is thick
And tide is low

I’m going home
I’m going home

Watch out for
The ones who fight

Oh they will lie
They will lie

Write if you need
Sage or spice

This is goodbye
This is goodbye

5 / Wildfire

There is a collection of ache
covered in gold
By my side it stays while
through the days we just float

In perfect dissonance conceptualizing
ways of how to not be seen
because even I cannot understand
the paradox of me, now

I don’t have much to give anymore
I have no words left to speak unless forced
and there’s a wildfire
and it's burning in my head
but in time I’ll find my way out of it

And while I’m alone in its’ debris
I will regrow and bloom from this seed
In these sacred momеnts of uncertainty
I will serve as my own home

I’m sorry for the
way I have become
Oh, how far I’ve strayed from
The truth I knew more of when young

In a restless paranoia I have tried to stay
important in the eyes of everyone else
Carrying that heavy self imposed burden
I placed them first and lost myself, now

I don’t have much to give anymore
I have no words left to speak unless forced
and there’s a wildfire
and it's burning in my head
but in time I’ll find my way out of it

And while I’m alone in its debris
I will regrow and bloom from this seed
In these sacred moments of uncertainty
I will serve as my own home

6 / Aurora

In bareness I soaked
for a silence that was owed

Then out came a scream
that set my skin aflame
with a sharpened tongue to
replace the words
I carefully raised

Then the morning sun rose
as she always does
And her birds sang
I could feel their breath
through my rigid spine

Such air can stitch
Wounds like thread

7 / Orenda

Coming back slowly
into the moment
The air is changing now

Fell into the water
and kept becoming smaller
until I relearned how to breathe

In, Out, Letting go
I only am what I know
Freedom came to be
when I accepted the pain that sinked

And out from the deep
I've arrived with a crown
Don't come for me
or I'll take you down

Crescent moon rising
with impeccable timing
But I can handle the dark

Look back at the progress,
what I thought I was lost in
now just fades into the night

In, Out, Letting go
I only am what I know
Freedom came to be
when I accepted the pain that sinked

And out from the deep
I've arrived with a crown
Don't come for me
Or I'll take you down

In, Out Letting go
I only am what I know
Freedom came to be
when I accepted the pain that sinked

And out from the deep
I've arrived with a crown
Don't come for me
I’m too high
to bring down

8 / Floriculture

Over the mountains
there lives a pink sky
Higher and higher
We reach for the color
but it was never
yours nor mine

Envy deceives us
We focus on
what we can’t have
Farther and farther
we stray from
our inner knowings
and lose our hearts to spite

But here in the garden
everything can be found
Bounty and bounty,
right here there is plenty
So no need to hunger or cry

Love is surrounding
and there’s a rainbow
in front of your eyеs
Breathe in and breathe out
Listen to your own sound
and everything
Truly will be fine